This isnt really a cw vent as much as a mind infodump so I’m not tagging it.
When I first posted a week ago I was still deep in revelation of “dang I kinda like dressing fem”. And wondering if im really trans or just like cross dressing or if im fluid or whatever the fuck.
I’m more stressed now as im at the tail end of moving out and I’ve been go-go-go for this entire time without a break. So I haven’t really been thinking about it, every day it’s just throw my work jeans on,get the nonrunning project car running so it can get out of the garage, try to keep head straight at work, bla bla. And like, when I’m hard focused, I don’t mind being a man. I’m just getting shit done out here bro.
Which makes me wonder. When I get moved to the new place and life slows back down is this shit gonna hit me like a ton of bricks all at once? Or is it just ADHD novelty seeking drawing me in for a couple weeks and I’m faking everything?
Its weird. I haven’t tried talking about it to my partner yet but I doubt she’d be that worried (she’s super bi and open/an ally for all queers). But I’m still left questioning wtf my brain wants. I don’t really want to be this way because it adds so much more complexity to my day life.
I hate being sentient lol
it’s tempting ngl. what other people here have told me about how even just single doses of hrt can change your brain feel (when you’re wired for E but don’t have it seems to lead to brain fog n shit) makes me curious to try it.
note that i can report the effect mostly for finasteride, not so much for estrogen itself.
Thats the t blocker right?
well kinda. it blocks DHT (which is a byproduct of testosterone) which is also a hormone and has some effects, but it doesn’t block all testosterone. anyways in case you get to try it out, i’d appreciate an experience report from you :)
Yeah, I might see if I can get a hold of some and try it for a couple days.