Not unstable nor unreliable, just a bit buggy. Every so often you gotta do a quick qq to exit and wait up to 5 minutes for it to let go of the ram. On occasion I’ve had to terminate the process as it was doing something wacky.

Yeah i only get near 100% when I’m doing a lot of virtualization or running nyx for a long time since there’s a memory leak in there.

well obviously as the treat distributor, you skim a treat off for yourself. And as the treat deliverer you get one too. As the treat consumer, you already are getting your treat. and the corruption and embezzlement only expands from there. soon you’re consuming entire bags at a time but you need to keep the system fed. everyone has more and more mouths to put cookies in. eventually the system will need to collapse.

Come to Chicago. Rent is fucked I won’t lie, but you can still find some cheap places. Depending on what you do (or are willing to do) there’s plenty of work here. Our city is a far cry from perfect but we have a mayor who actually has the people’s best interests in mind, we’re politically active and quite progressive, there aren’t enough free community resources but far more than most places, we have multiple forms of slightly shitty but fully functional mass transit, and weed is legal. Also, portions of the city are extremely walkable and bikeable.

I disagree for one reason.

My uncle was being homophobic and transphobic so I started to misgender him so he could see what its like.

Unsure if he’s less bigoted now but he definitely got quite upset and it made the point to everyone else around at least.

that’s what im questioning. if he was a more flamboyant queer person would people have laughed it off? based on the comments i suspect they would have. it’s the fact he was “aggressive”; which i agree he may have been a bit forward and i wouldn’t recommend opening like that but he was also mostly respectful when rejected. I don’t think he’s trying to hurt anyone nor was anyone in any danger, he just probably knows the type of people he likes and they probably know him.

Yeah I agree he came on strong but it seems that’s his vibe in the scene and he was mostly respectful when rejected. i think some people’s biases are showing

I agree with your points. I just want to add that what OP was talking about is that the existence of a deity or higher power is not falsifiable and thus is impossible to logically disprove. I’m sure many, many, many people have tried on both sides.

My favorite proof against any higher power is from the Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy:

Now, it is such a bizarrely improbable coincidence that anything so mind-bogglingly useful could have evolved purely by chance that some have chosen to see it as the final proof of the NON-existence of God. The argument goes something like this:

“I refuse to prove that I exist,” says God, “for proof denies faith, and without faith I am nothing.”

“But,” says Man, “the Babel fish is a dead giveaway, isn’t it? It could not have evolved by chance. It proves that You exist, and so therefore, by Your own arguments, You don’t. QED.”

“Oh dear,” says God, “I hadn’t thought of that,” and promptly vanishes in a puff of logic.

“Oh, that was easy,” says Man, and for an encore goes on to prove that black is white and gets himself killed on the next zebra crossing.

Edit: changes “logically prove” to “logically disprove” as that’s why the concept of a higher power cannot be disproven.

I accept your logic and see the error of my ways. Thank you.

I’m not certain that it was the type of culture you’re thinking of. and i didn’t want to put a force field around the fridge. i have stuff in there too.

I make an attempt to understand human culture as much as possible. See the note about how I have tried many fermented human foods.

I do not understand Mike.

Given Mike’s absentmindedness, I do believe this was a very real possibility.

I really appreciate your insight. It’s really helpful for remembering that it’s ok to be unsure and sometimes with time we gain clarity. I do think I’m being hard on myself but at the same time i don’t want to completely let up for fear I’ll regress. Which is a bit silly having typed it out.

we just need IRCv2 which should add chat history

I would like to point out that while no form of stalking is acceptable and I will not be engaging with it further, the information I was finding wasn’t any new or revelatory; its the information I had forgotten over the years. But i agree, it’s harmful to my healing journey, invades her privacy, and is overall just a shitty thing to do.

As for the weed, it serves a very specific purpose in my life that changes from time to time and is consistently reevaluated. It’s not to numb me, and I do monitor my consumption for abnormal effects. I am a fully functional adult, with emotional awareness and regulation, while stoned.

I don’t think you’re necessarily wrong, I think it’s just the issues are a lot deeper buried so it’s difficult to account for Thank you for taking the time to respond though!

Thank you for your insight, I really appreciate it. I am doing my best to give things a fair shake with my partner as she’s wonderful. This is something I wouldn’t be able to do without her.

I am in the healthiest relationship of my life with someone I genuinely love and appreciate, which makes these feelings all the worst. I think thanks to our fellow lemmings, i have some good ideas on how to progress forward. But the strategy you outlined is what helped me get to this point, so thank you for your perspective!

human minds are very weird

Thank you, I will.