tbh I gave up on it but I found that if you do it consistently it hurts way less

And that’s fair/accurate to say, overly simplifying this conversation doesn’t work. I normally wouldn’t have but honestly running it up against panic due to an unknown amount of reddit anecdotes, I wasn’t inclined to dig into it.

Pretty sure that only happens if you repress. I honestly have the exact same preferences

Honestly I’d just slowly grow shorter and more proportional. The gaslight anyone that questions my height

ah I understand now it’s like if you flex the muscles down around there it does have that sensation of "hardening/shifting " even though ngl my clit never feels hard like a penis had or perhaps I’ve forgotten it properly. But based your experience I could see how that would feel similar. I’m not sure what to recommend since even after years I didn’t shrink much

I feel like part of that “scrotum” feeling is phantom nerves because I used to get that feeling and it’s basically gone after a few years.

The erect panic honestly Idk if I experienced it because it feels so much smaller/different/undetectable.

Suffering? sometimes I would find an empty parking lot and just scream for a while.

I slept so much that I couldn’t remember what was going on sometimes. Even now if I’m not careful I can get like that

Name was honestly not that difficult in the grand scheme of things. Like yeah it took months and I was on hrt before I decided on a name but I already had an idea.

I just took my old initials and found names that came from a similar part of the world. From there I slimmed the list down based on their meanings/translations. I do think that if I had done anything different I’d have a different middle name just because the meaning is kinda an insult even if it’s not directed at me. I think that takes power away from the process.