These past few weeks, I’ve been doing surprisingly well…
Not only did I have no suicidal thoughts, but my intrusive thoughts are also being suppressed quite well. My mood has been really good, minus the occasional slightly bad day (dysphoria sucks). I attribute some of it to the prog I’m taking.

My therapist was really proud of me…during our last session, she told me that I barely stopped smiling through the whole thing (which was true 😆). Considering that the session before, she recommended a visit to the psych ward…yeah, this is a big improvement 😂

Ordered more clothes from Vinted, my wardrobe is getting so freaking full, lol. Still trying to be more confident in my body, step by step. I’d say it’s kinda working…
I’m feeling a bit better about my face. It definitely isn’t feminine, but it is different, in a good way. It’s changing, slowly but surely.

I’m currently visiting my dad, helping him with computer stuff (moving away from Windows 11 and to Linux 😆). We’ve discussed my SRS options, and if I’m very lucky, I can maybe get the surgery in Thailand when I’m eligible, in 6 months…
If this works out…I don’t know. I’ll be one MASSIVE step closer to being who I want to be…it gives me so much hope for the future. Just the possibility, having the body that I want, getting such an important gender-affirming procedure…it really does fill me with hope.

My dad used to struggle with names and pronouns. He doesn’t make mistakes anymore tho. It used to hurt a lot when he did, but now, he happily calls me by my chosen legal name 😆
And he also calls me his daughter, which is just so unbelievably sweet, oh my gosh 🩷

I’m staying at dad’s for a couple of days. I really miss my boyfriend, but he came to visit today. We kissed and hugged, kissed and hugged, talked a little, then kissed and hugged some more…right in front of my father 😂. He didn’t mind tho. He’s super understanding and even gave us some privacy…

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I may have sucked my bf’s dick in the bathroom, but I’m not confessing to anything 😜
He was extremely pleased, as always (of course he was, duh) and making him feel good always makes me happy. Also, his praise boosts my confidence quite a bit, so there’s that 😂

Me and my bf have been doing super well together. Even tho he’s at work so often…I enjoy every minute with him. I love him so freaking much ❤️

This has been Random slice of life with Miisha. Thanks for tuning in. This probably doesn’t even belong in this community, for which I am sorry, but…I’m just really happy with life right now 💜

  • Lily@lemmy.zipEnglish
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    18 天前

    Glad for you, my last weeks has been chaotic. But I’ll my manage. New treatment, I’m starting journaling my feeling / sensations since the new medecine to see if that’s worth continuing after a month. So far 1st day. I already don’t want to continue but… I’ll see. Maybe this is just the time that my body adapts to this. I wrote more than this (symptoms) but the general idea.

    • AnxiousMiisha@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
      4·
      18 天前

      Girl, that sounds rough 🫂
      Pardon my assumptions, but is the new medicine perhaps some sort of SSRI? If yes…that’s just double rough. I’m sorry 🩵

      I hope your body does adapt. I hope you feel better. You’re already really freaking pretty, so HRT is working :3
      Take care girl 💜

      • Lily@lemmy.zipEnglish
        2·
        18 天前

        Well the effect is not primary for depression but anti-epileptic but used for other effects.