That’s OK, I lived most of my life not transitioning because of internalized TERF-like thinking (like that I would be appropriating women’s suffering by transitioning to become a woman, that wearing makeup or women’s clothes would be akin to betrayal to women by perpetuating sexist norms about femininity, or that I would never want to infringe on women’s spaces, and so on).

It’s only been six weeks since my surgery, so I have not yet fully recovered.

I actually had complications, some wound separation where some of the skin graft didn’t take near the base of the vagina, so part of the skin sloughed off. Despite that, I highly recommend it so far.

When I first looked at the vagina after the surgery, in the hospital bed, I fully expected to feel regret - instead I was flooded with relief. I had no idea how much I had been holding onto shame about my genitals, and I just broke down crying from the relief. There have been a lot of positive moments since then, and so far I haven’t even remotely felt regret even in the worst moments when I temporarily was told I couldn’t dilate while in the hospital and I thought I might lose my canal.

Let me know if you have any questions or if you are curious about anything.